Wanted to say hi and share my story.

I'm Lisa, 32 yrs old. At 16 I was scared beyond belief. I met my husband at 17. We knew eachother from High School. He drove everywhere and... still does. I have a major anxiety and panic attacks. Aside from driving, sleeping is the 2nd difficult thing to do. I actually have plans, when he goes to welding school, to join a driving institute to maybe get this under control. Now Im worried everyone will be so young and I'll be the only adult.

I have to admit th reason I'm going to this school is because I know everyone wants me to. If he will be going to school and we would only be a street away from eachother, I feel that I have absolutely NO excuse not to go. This will be several years from now though. not something I have to worry about right now.

When you dont want to drive, your mind will find ANY excuse to validate it. To be honest, I dont want my husband/I to have ANOTHER vehicle that will consume gas and require maintenence. not just oil changes but internal things that end up costing a lot.

How have ppl reacted to your ot driving? I get the same answer everytime.. "then DONT drive" It seems to be no problem, but they make it sound so simple. It's NOT simple, at all. I think maybe CANT is what feels so bad. Cant drive feels like a disability. Wont drive feels more controllable. I would rather a 'Dont have to'. My husband could get in an accident any time, I could have an emergency, etc etc etc. I'm sure you guys already know all the things that can run through your mind. I feel so responsible and the type of person I am just doesnt get held down by something like THIS! It keeps me home and not working like a disabled person. I hate it.

What are the options ppl can take? Busses here are dangerous. Taxis are almost as bad. I wish I lived close enough to walk somewhere. it's not safe to do that anyways either.